Every one of us has our own version, our own particular style of keeping secrets of all kinds. You might appear to be well groomed, well behaved, such a reasonable person, but behind that whole thing there are loads and loads of garbage that you do not want to throw out. Basically, we want to hold on to our confusion, and we do not want to give in to any messages coming from outside. We let the world be confused, so that no one can catch us. We hope people will think we are good, reliable persons. That deceptive approach is a problem, especially if you have already begun practicing meditation.
From Milarepa: Lessons from the Life and Songs of Tibet’s Great Yogi, pages 66 to 67.